Ephesians 3:20-21 The Message (MSG)
“God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.”
I always wanted to be the “good girl”. I wanted to be in the “in crowd”. I wanted to be a part of something that I could not quite grasp, and I was not really sure what that something even was. Here was not where I wanted to be, and I did not know where “there” was. I was lost. I was trying to find my place and direction in life.
So, I figured out how I should act, and how to serve those around me so they saw me as good. I put on a different mask for each way I needed to act. I looked for clothes and material items that would bring me closer to the “in crowd” and I continually searched for where I belonged. I still never felt like I fit in.
Over time and with my ever developing faith, I realized that I will never “fit in”. I am who I am, and I needed to let go of all of the different masks that I wore to become the face underneath the mask. I needed to accept who I am. Take time to look inside, and focus on myself to discover who God created me to be. I needed to look within and find the Spirit that resided in me and let it surface.
Not an easy task and something that I know that I will always be working on. Insecurity and doubt are always lurking in the corner of my mind and heart. Peoples looks and words can wound me in an instant, and these wounds can take a long time to heal.
I find that surrounding myself with those I love and who love me, immersing myself in the words that God has laid before me and a keeping a mind open to learning and growing are key to living the life I am meant to have. I also have discovered that I want to be with others on a similar journey. I want to identify with them, learn from them and walk beside them. I pray that as I learn from them, they will also learn from me.
Got Masks?? How is God working from within you today?